Memoirs of a Socialite: Its just those Rainy Dayz

Hmmmmm..... Today I missed u. (FYI:I'm not talking about U) Not u so much as I missed the idea of u. At least the u I created in my head. In my mind ur are Everything. But in reality its just me. Sitting here on a Friday evening in the bed watching Cartoon Network without u. I'm sure I'll get passed it... but just right now I miss it. I try to talk to my friends about U but how can I speak on something I don't really understand. So I just watch Cartoon Network. Alone. Without U. I think its this weather that has U on my mind. That kinda warm spring evening with the rain. Sky full of nature sounds and scents. Yep days like these make me want u more. Make me wish I could go back to the first time I met u..... Lock U up and never let u go. Rainy days will do that to u I guess. This weather brings out the romance. DAMN RAIN!!! But it is what it is.

There was a time I would have done anything to be with u, around u, for just one second. Those days are long gone. These days I just don't trust u.... Don't like u.... And could really give a fuck less about what ur doing right now. (Its still not about U) But even with all that I MISS U!!! I wish that could get back with U. But I won't, I can't. Not now.....Its just too soon. I wanna be perfect next time we meet. I wanna deserve it all.

Just in case u all haven't figured out by now.... I'm not talking about someone. I'm talking about something. LOVE. That feeling u get when u wake up in the morning still in each others arms. Or how u feel when U get the "I was just thinkin bout u" text message mid afternoon while going thru at work. That's what I'm talkin about. Oh how nice it would be to sift thru the bullshit of life to get back to that point again. One day!!! But until then, I'll just be sitting here with my Cartoon Network and catch up on some much needed rest.