Memoirs of a Socialite: Please Excuse my Tears

Please excuse my tears.  I didn't mean to be emotional.  I meant to be a 6'4" ROCK.  I meant to be an emotionless vessel.  

Normally my feelings are tucked so far away... Or are they?  Cuz if they were How is it possible to constantly be hurt the way I am?  How is it possible to be constantly let down like I am? 

I think I need to do a better job of guarding ME...  But if I do that then am I being fair to who or whatever's next? 

I'm confused.  I don't get it... And I'm tired of trying to make sense of it all.