Memoirs of a Socialite: Tears on a Blackberry...

For the last week I think I've cried more than I have in my entire adult life.

I'm tired of cryin.

I'm tired of feelin.

I'm just tired of being sad. I've never been a sad person. I'm usually pretty upbeat. But I can't shake this one. I wear these feelings like a cloak on my back it seems. My permanent garb of shame. Either way these feelings weigh me down like a sack of stone. If I can muster up a smile, its filled with heartache and pain.

I'm SAD y'all...

If I cry one more time today I'm gonna pull out my hair. I hate this. I wanna go back to never feelin a thing. I wanna be cold and cruel again. I want that... Can I get that please? I mean whats the point of emotions anyway? THEY HURT!!!

I don't think my Blackberry can take too many more days like THIS.