Dear "Daddy"
Now I think that I've turned out a pretty successful young man. I have an education, great job, friends that love me, and a one on one relationship with God. It bothers me tho. Like I wonder y didn't u help me in any of that? Now I know when u talk to all ur friends and family and u tell them how well I'm doing U feel like it was all u...... WHAT PART DID U PLAY? I mean really. Since I can remember Its been Me, My Sister, and My Mom. Us against the world (6810). That's all I've had. Y is that? What really happened that U felt it was best to throw us on the back burner while u live ur life? I mean lets not sugar coat anything. How much time did u ever spend with me? Y didn't u ever teach me to throw a football? The little stuff. No woman should have to raise a MAN. But my mom had to. DAMN SHAME.
Dear "Daddy"
What if I didn't have U? How different would my life be? Hmmmmmm...... Not by much I think cuz I never really had U to begin with. I mean U left my mom and set up shop else where. Now don't get me wrong, I gotta GREAT Brother and Sister (HEY TWIN!) out the deal. But I mean how much was damaged? How much was Sacrificed to get u what u wanted at the moment? Did u ever think about the outcome? Or were u just too busy living ur life? Come on.... Tell me. I can take it.
Dear "Daddy"
Do u ever think about me? Do u care about me? Did u ever care about me? I mean I'm ur first BOY. Did u forget me yet? I think u did. I mean to not know my birthday (that hasn't changed in the last 28 years). Come on now. I know u say u know it. But I was there when U called Beth a couple days before to check to make sure u hadn't missed it. I DARE U TO SAY I'M LYING ABOUT THAT. I DARE U!!!
Dear "Daddy"
In almost 28 years do u even know me? If someone came up and asked u about Tha Urban Socialite would u have any idea what they were talkin about? Kinda sad. U know I was laughin the other day thinkin about Patrice. Her and Eddy have been married about 5 years now and SHE knows WAY MORE about me then U ever would. Ain't that sad? Too bad if u ask me. Even more..... Do I know U? HELL NO!!!
Dear "Daddy"
I know nothing about u. That's so sad to be of the same family and at the same time perfect strangers. What do I know about u other than ur name? I've always asked myself, if someone called me and told me u passed away how would I react? Honestly I can't say that I would shed a tear. The only thing I could even think of to say is..... "Man! That's too bad." I should be able to come up with more than that for a parent, but I can't. U ever notice how awkward it is when we are around each other? That's because I don't know u.
Now "Daddy" I don't want u to think I hate U. I don't. U know what I feel for u? HONESTLY? I feel pitty. Pitty cuz U missed out on an opportunity to get to know a GREAT GUY u helped create.
2 comments:
He missed out on knowing two very wonderful people. And he is missing the chance to know his granchildren too. Its really sad when you think about it. How can any man make children and then not have anything to do with the people they become. He should feel like trash because of it. And I am sure thats why it is so weird when he is around.
Jason, bravo sir. I feel you on the post. VERY! VERY, well put. You know that you and I have those "dad" issues in common...Know this: You are the man you are, because you tought yourself all the things others could not, or were not around to teach you. Be you. Be amazing. Be strong. Be true.. to yourself and everyone around you. Again. This post..:"Nicely, nicely."
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