Mini Blog: Tha Definition of a Father

To be considered a father, u would have to do more than u did. All u did is had sex with my mother.... That just makes u a MOTHER FUCKER!!!

Now run tell him I said that.......

Memoirs of a Socialite: A Letter 2 "Daddy"

Dear "Daddy"

Now I think that I've turned out a pretty successful young man. I have an education, great job, friends that love me, and a one on one relationship with God. It bothers me tho. Like I wonder y didn't u help me in any of that? Now I know when u talk to all ur friends and family and u tell them how well I'm doing U feel like it was all u...... WHAT PART DID U PLAY? I mean really. Since I can remember Its been Me, My Sister, and My Mom. Us against the world (6810). That's all I've had. Y is that? What really happened that U felt it was best to throw us on the back burner while u live ur life? I mean lets not sugar coat anything. How much time did u ever spend with me? Y didn't u ever teach me to throw a football? The little stuff. No woman should have to raise a MAN. But my mom had to. DAMN SHAME.

Dear "Daddy"

What if I didn't have U? How different would my life be? Hmmmmmm...... Not by much I think cuz I never really had U to begin with. I mean U left my mom and set up shop else where. Now don't get me wrong, I gotta GREAT Brother and Sister (HEY TWIN!) out the deal. But I mean how much was damaged? How much was Sacrificed to get u what u wanted at the moment? Did u ever think about the outcome? Or were u just too busy living ur life? Come on.... Tell me. I can take it.

Dear "Daddy"

Do u ever think about me? Do u care about me? Did u ever care about me? I mean I'm ur first BOY. Did u forget me yet? I think u did. I mean to not know my birthday (that hasn't changed in the last 28 years). Come on now. I know u say u know it. But I was there when U called Beth a couple days before to check to make sure u hadn't missed it. I DARE U TO SAY I'M LYING ABOUT THAT. I DARE U!!!

Dear "Daddy"

In almost 28 years do u even know me? If someone came up and asked u about Tha Urban Socialite would u have any idea what they were talkin about? Kinda sad. U know I was laughin the other day thinkin about Patrice. Her and Eddy have been married about 5 years now and SHE knows WAY MORE about me then U ever would. Ain't that sad? Too bad if u ask me. Even more..... Do I know U? HELL NO!!!

Dear "Daddy"

I know nothing about u. That's so sad to be of the same family and at the same time perfect strangers. What do I know about u other than ur name? I've always asked myself, if someone called me and told me u passed away how would I react? Honestly I can't say that I would shed a tear. The only thing I could even think of to say is..... "Man! That's too bad." I should be able to come up with more than that for a parent, but I can't. U ever notice how awkward it is when we are around each other? That's because I don't know u.

I don't know:

ur favorite color

ur favorite movie

if u went to college

Now "Daddy" I don't want u to think I hate U. I don't. U know what I feel for u? HONESTLY? I feel pitty. Pitty cuz U missed out on an opportunity to get to know a GREAT GUY u helped create.

Memoirs of a Socialite: 09-19-2008

OK.... So Yeah I miss u. Like right now being on the phone with u I'm thinking about u. LOL! Crazy right? Ur not that bad of a person. And U've changed a lil bit. Its cute. I'm glad that we can be friends. Ur my Pineapple Express. Always will be. REMEMBER THAT DAMNIT!!!

So yeah today I miss u.

TELL THE WORLD......

I still remember The All White in the middle of the summer and that weird ass play.

Neatly folded clothes in the corner.... lol

I'm not gonna keep going.

But I do.

Fairy Tales - Anita Baker