Memoirs of a Socialite: Who shot CUPID?

Am I the only one that's ok with not being in love? I mean what is love? And what the HELL is the big fuss over it? To the point that ur FUCKin obsessing over it? I've been there and ITS OVERRATED!!! I think back and laugh about it now.... but then, this was a kinda of dying to me. Losing the one person I had TRULY loved, and still loved more than anything was unfathomable to me.

I say FUCK it. FUCK finding it, FUCK questioning it, and FUCK obsessing over it. If we spent half the time investing in (and improving) ourselves as we do looking for love how much better would we be as people? I think back to a time when I was actually in love, that's all I thought about. I skipped class for love, left work early for love, missed important events..... LOVE TOOK OVER. What kinda life is that? My relationship went bad for all sorts of reasons, but not because I'm a screwup. I made LOVE the most important part of life..... I lost myself.

Now I know when u read this I'm gonna sound Jaded and bitter. I not!!! I'm far from it. I'm Happy. I mean my life isn't perfect.... BUT ITS MINE. Its not consumed by other things. I'm living it instead of chasing after it... I mean a heart can be broken, but it still keeps beating just the same. Right? Its the only broken instrument that can still work.

So what am I saying? Heartbreaks? U can get over those. But can u really deal with the fact that u spent ur life waiting for this one thing to find u, and in the mean time accomplish nothing? At some point or another life will break ur heart, but u have the ability to mend it. U have the ability and right to live deliberately and joyfully.

U make these decision.....