Welcome To My World: October 2010

I didn't wanna write that... But I did

I didn't wanna think that... But I was

I still probably shouldn't be feelin this... But I am (still).

I just can't help it. I been tryin to fight this but the more I fight the more I feel. DAMN!!! How long can I go on ignoring how I feel? How long can I go on playin the role? DAMN!!! Got me sittin up dreamin love poems like:

When ur around me I get this feelin

My mind draws a blank

Knees start to shake

Then my heart starts to race

I'm feelin like I lost control

My hands get a little cold

I get nervous inside and out

I have these feelins I can't figure out

These butterflies inside of me

Keep flutterin all throughout

Just when u think they're gone for good

They try to come out

Its sumthin in ur ways

That's y U got me like you do

The way you seem to make me feel

Guess that's y I like you like I do......

Ummmmmmmm........................................ What the HELL are u doing to me?

I'm sure I'm gonna catch a lot of flack for what I'm about to write. I'm sure there are gonna be those out there that disagree.... This post has been in the works for quite some time but I wasn't sure if I should even go thru it or not..... But whats the point of a BLOG if u cant be free to express ur own opinions?

GOD HATES FAGS..... I'm sure when u hear this line u get the image of "Uber-Christians" picketing outside of some LGBT event.... But this isn't that. This is directed to the FAGS not the GAYS (and yes there is a difference). The gays are just same sex loving people looking for some type of equality (SN: in 2010 its sad they haven't found what they are looking for). I mean these are just normal people: Doctors, Lawyers, Police Officers, Actors...... etc. The FAGS on the other hand are HATERS. They lie, cheat, talk behind ur back. Cowards if u will. A FAG lives for the drama.... They intentionally go out and start as much shit as possible, and sit back and watch the mess they've created. I'm sure if we all think hard enough we know some FAGS. FAGS want to hurt u. They want to tear down every person they come across. Be it fueled but jealousy or stupidity, the FAGS are out there. Its crazy to me tho..... that a community like the LGBT would be so divided when they are already facing so much..... But hey, U can't tell a FAG SHIT cuz they're dumb.

Messy:

I've come across some MESSY FAGS in my time. The ones that kinda sit back and talk shit about u just because. Recently while out with some friends..... My BFF/Wifey Evonne overheard a FAG talkin about me. He didn't even know me. Wouldn't know my last name if it wasn't for FB..... But he was running his mouth anyway.... But y? Honestly, because I wasn't interested in dating him. Come on now, ur gonna try to run my name in the mud cuz I'm just not that into U(SN: he was very UGLY)? Get over it MESSY FAG. Once in a while u'll have to deal with the reality that people aren't gonna always like u. Get over it and move on.... DAMN!!!

Cyber Bully:

I'm starting to think that FB and other social networks are the FAGS Best Friend. They spew their hate all over pages and status updates. The other day a WELL KNOWN MESSY FAG attempted to start a fight over the Internet just because he was bored. FAG get a life. While u sit ur lonely ass around tryna get shit jumpin off on the computer people are out livin their lives. Redirect some of that boredom..... read a book, better yet FILL OUT A JOB APPLICATION. I just don't get it. U spend time and energy hatin on somebody that's not even thinkin about u. DUH!!! Who fights over the computer anyway? Get a LIFE.

Homie Smasher:

This one cracks me up..... Anyone that follows my Blog knows that I've been single for a minute (SN: by choice). I've met some really cool people along the way..... One in particular, HEY BOO!!! Anyway... so this dating scene is really cut throat these days. Folks just runnin around fuckin EVERYBODY. So it seems that every time I might be interested in someone they turn around a FUCK one of my friends. I can't blame my friends cuz they don't know. I'mma trying sumthin new with dating.... Keepin it a Secret for a while... lol. But yeah, these folks keep SMASHIN my HOMIES. Come on now. U think I'm not gonna know? And its so STUPID cuz its happened at least 5 times this year. LMAO & SMDH at the same time. Who fucks in a circle? Y would u bone my buddy when so many other willing folk out there? I just don't understand

I think this is gonna be an on going story so be on the look out for part 2.....